Sigh. Today started with getting back literature paper 1 first question. Tkam. I’m so disappointed. In myself. Not with anyone else. But only myself. Because I know I could have done a lot better than this mark which btw I failed. It was my fault for not paying more attention to my lit. Taking for granted that I’ll do well for lit like all the other times. I guess god wanted to teach me a lesson that I had to work hard for a good grade. :(
Then I got back history. Which I have also neglected because I spent too much time on chemistry this term. And had chemistry and history on the same day. I was sad and angry that I fail SEQ history. I did study history. I thought I should have at least passed. Sigh. I guess it’s my wake up call.
We got back bio pract (which i expected to fail and I did-_-) and then i went down to get my ss results. I was already so shaken by my previous results and i was so sad and i didnt really wan to see my ss results because i dont want to see another fail. Fortunately, the results enlightened me instead:) i did better than i expected and was really happy afterwards. However, my happiness was shortlived.
We got back both em paper 1 and 2 after that. Paper two was given out first and i expected the result and also was shocked at the same time. I expected myself to do badly this time round, because I did not prepare much and I just hoped to pass. Indeed, my paper 2 was very badly done. I was sad. Math used to be my best paper. I then prayed that my paper1 would pull me up, and when I gt paper1, my heart felt so relieved. I passed. And it wasn’t THAT bad (I really expected really bad). I thank god that he showed me grace this time round again. I really have to work harder from now on :( I spent too much time on my sciences. But I also know that this time round my sciences aren’t gonna do well either because I only just started studying for it and although I’m very hardcore for that, I m really lacking behind for science. :( sigh. I really hope my parents won’t freak :( my math tutor will confirm say he expected my results to be so sucky. Sigh. Never pleased him once before la. No matter how hard I try. Sigh. Alright, I feel very demoralized now. Especially by lit, history and em. I need time to think and set my mind on the right track again. I feel very sad :(