brought Marcus to my hairdresser today for him to get a haircut for his job interview tomorrow > dance studio to choreograph for explosive encounter event > strength and power finale item training with the ever so funny Xyz > kfc’s cheese fries for dinner (i know i’m really an unhealthy idiot haha) > home downloading and adding hundreds of songs into my ipod which I haven’t touched in weeks hahahahaha > feeling like a happy girl now that I am so updated with my songs LOLOLOLOLOL (well, not really actually ahhaha).
tomorrow gonna spend some time with Vanessa again :D (hahaha we met like everyday this week except Monday lololol). Gonna have Sake Sushi Buffet with her! yayness! Finally. :D Tomorrow shall be a better day!
Seems like my holidays are straightening out slowly and things are getting better :) hehe, I seriously LOVE holidays. Wish this could be forever. HAHAHA. Oh wells. Who am I to bluff, it’s only gonna be less than a month! :(
The wind’s blowing like crazy and it’s super nice to snuggle now. :) The wind was nice but it was kind of too much such that it started to freak me out. Hahaha!
This holiday isn’t gonna be far from designing either; working with church in the Design areas under the Creative Board and in charge of designing for a church event:) A lot of designing to do this holidays but I’m loving it and enjoying it and looking forward to it!! :D Less stressful than school obviously, haha!
Had production training just now and laughed throughout the training. XYZ is the funniest ever and I am so blessed to have him believing in me :) Really hope In The Making will be a complete success!! :)
Walked around Bugis just now before going to church but couldn’t find much stuffs that’d buy :( Disappointing :( Had ice cream on the way to church! Ice cream is seriously the source of my happiness haha! And now I’m just using my com, watching television series online, playing plants vs zombies (don’t judge me, haha, I know it’s a really old game but just felt like playing it all of a sudden ok! haha), talking to Marcus on Skype, tumblring, youtubing, etcetc. :) And just ate chocolate prima deli cake and Dad bought Yakult and Cow cheese!!! I’m gonna grow so fat this holiday but man, I’m living the life tonight :D It feels soooo super awesome to be happy. Hahaha. Rarely get to feel this way ya know?:( hahaha. It feels great to know that XYZ believes in me :) And it feels great that everything is falling into place:) That I also can take things in a “my time, own target” manner, something like History of Graphic Design times hahaha. Love life when it’s like that. :)
Alright, tomorrow meeting Vanessa and gonna start on some church events stuffs!! :) And wanna do a shoutout to Geraldine Chick!!! Happy birthday to you babe! I miss you so much and we must definitely hang out once your exams are over!!! Can’t ever forget the times we spent together! Hahaha love you loads!!! Good luck for your exams and have an awesome day ahead!!! :D
Tomorrow will be a better day!! Hmm I think I shop better alone somehow, hahahaha oh wells I just feel like shopping but I need the stupid cashhhhh. :((( Okie dokez, Mom’s gonna kill me if I don’t go to sleep now cos it’s getting really late haha. Cuzzie’s wedding this Saturday! Have yet to think about what to wear!!! But definitely need to take plenty plenty of pictures! HAHAHHA one of the top things I love about weddings. HAHAHA my VPress collage/booklet hehehehe.
Today was good :) watched crazy stupid love, had awesome lunch and dinner, ate rittersport yogurt flavors, received my belated birthday present from sissy (which is supppppeeeerrr expensive and really didn’t think she’d give me that!:D), celebrated daddy birthday, had time for Marcus and had time for myself too :) hehe. Love today :) ate really a lot throughout the whole day though hahahaha. Got a small gift from Marcus ^^ which was the Mario red mushroom thingy sweet :D hehe. So cute ^^ also found what I wanna buy for mom’s birthday already! ^^ I hope tmrw will be as good as today! Hopefully dance will be good and everything goes well. I just hope it will. Haha oh well!
No matter how hard I try, it won’t be seen or noticed. Like it doesnt matter at all. Not like I do it just for ppl (you) to see and notice it, but I can’t be always just placed in the background, right? I am so deeply discouraged right now. Cried my eyeballs out when I got home.
Why can’t I just succeed in something in my life? Not in my studies not in my dance not in my relationships with people. Why. Why cant I see the light. Why every single thing I sacrifice or did for any thing doesn’t pay off at all. NOT AT ALL. Nothing.
Sigh forget it. Just gonna take a huge break this holiday. I need a breather from life. I am so exhausted. And I really just want to give up. I’m tired of trying.